Life was never golden
Without the sun that shines
But you’ll never truly notice
Unless you open your eyes.
Love was never sweet
Without a little rain
But because you had a hand to hold
You hardly noticed the pain.
Ambition never blossomed
Without a little disappointment
But it was because the road was tough
That you truly deserved what you wanted.
Success was never measured
Without a little error
But it is our flaws that make us beautiful
And imperfections that make us better.
So Future, hold us close
And never let us go
Where your guiding hand will lead us
Only time will ever know.
And Sun, keep shining bright
Hold our chins up high
For sorrow may be temporary
But our limits reach the sky.
So this must be my lesson for the day
Learning how to live with someone else…
I don’t like relationships much,
I’ve never had a lot of friends
I’ve been an only child all my life
And often I didn’t have anyone to turn to but myself.
Well now, there’s you.
And I don’t know what to do about it
Sharing with you all these intimate thoughts
These feelings I’ve never had to explain before
Talking to you about how I feel even when no one’s looking…
It scares me.
I don’t really know how to be in a relationship.
All I know is how to love,
and love with all my heart.
If only that were enough.
Will someone please kill this burning knot in my throat?
It’s killing me…
More so, because I don’t even know why it’s there…
I’ve never felt this way before,
I’ve never been so confused and lost
I stare at your face every night and morning
And all I really want to do is kiss you.
For some reason the thought of that makes me want to cry..
I’m in the happiest relationship of my life,
And right now I feel depressed…
I need to get something off my chest…
Maybe then I’ll remember why I got myself into this.
I’m in the kinda mood… Where anything that makes even the slightest bit of sense… Is going on paper… And guess what? You have to deal with it. So what?
Btw, I’m hungry.
The past few days have moved in slow motion.
I don’t really know what’s going on.
Seeing my boyfriend has helped, as usual.
But I don’t even think venting to him will help much.
Besides, he’s got enough problems of his own.
So I vent here. Although, essentially he’s going to read this eventually anyway.
But some words are better left unsaid.
My thoughts are in short, stuttered spurts.
Hence the short, periodical sentences.
I don’t even know how to explain what’s going through my head right now.
Or even if how I feel is even relevant.
I feel anxiety.
What am I scared of?